Thoughts from me

I just have something on my mind today that I would like to get out.  I sit and think about Tristen and what he would be like.  Then I look at all these people that you hear about on the news and in the paper that have abused their children and pretty much tortured them.  Why is it they have their children and my son was taken away.........  Have you ever thought like that?  I did and I still do at times.  It is almost impossible to figure out why someone who loves their child so much has to say goodbye.  When parents who don't deserve kids get to keep their children.

When you lose a child you always have so many questions.  Who what when where WHY......Life isn't fair.  This I can tell you because I have been there.  It isn't fair that Tristen isn't with us and it isn't fair for all the parents who have lost children that would give anything for their kids.

Tristen wasn't meant to be on this earth, I know that now.  It took me a long time to realize that my son was born an angel.  God gave me the little time I had with Tristen because that is what I prayed for.  Love never stops even when the person passes from this world.  That love is always there.

It has been a little over 7 years since we said goodbye to our son.  I still think of him everyday.  Somedays it might be 1 time, other days I think about him all day long.  There was a poem that was read at Tristen's funeral that helps me when I get to the point that the day is unbearable.

When you feel like you can't deal with the emptiness anymore please read this poem.  It helps me so much just to think about him being there in everything that I do. 

We named a star after Tristen because of this poem.  It is the middle star in Orion's dagger.  Its name is Tristen's Halo.

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